YOU'LL SAY IT DIDN'T HAPPEN

I'm Writing It Anyway

von Kathryn Marie McMahon Martin

262 Seiten, Taschenbuch

Kurzbeschreibung des Verlags

For nearly a decade, I believed that if I could just explain myself better, try harder, stay calmer, forgive more, and somehow become easier to love, eventually everything would be okay.Then I left.I thought leaving would be the hard part.I was wrong.YOU'LL SAY IT DIDN'T HAPPEN - I'm Writing It Anyway. is a raw, darkly funny memoir about coercive control, motherhood, survival, divorce, and what happens when a woman who has spent years questioning herself finally starts believing what she lived through.This is not a neat story about recognizing abuse, walking away, and immediately becoming an inspirational woman standing barefoot on a beach at sunset.I didn't leave with perfect clarity.I left with my babies.I left after things had escalated far enough that when I had an opportunity to get out, I took it. And even then, I was still explaining. Still minimizing. Still wondering what I had done wrong. Still believing that if I could somehow make another person understand me, everything might finally make sense.Getting out of the house turned out to be only the beginning.What followed was the slow, painful realization that leaving a marriage and becoming free from it are not always the same thing.This book follows that unraveling: the memories I had normalized, the behavior I had excused, the anger I had been taught to distrust, the divorce that became its own battleground, and the uncomfortable process of learning that surviving something doesn't mean you immediately understand what happened to you.It is also a story about friendship.About recognizing another woman's right to safety before I could fully recognize my own.About a woman named Faith.A freezing Alaska night.A baby.The Alaska State Troopers.One successfully liberated dog.And the strange realization that sometimes we can see with absolute clarity what someone we love deserves while maintaining an entire catalog of reasons why we don't deserve the same thing ourselves.There is grief in these pages. There is anger. There are things I wish had happened differently and things I wish had never happened at all.But this is not a book about being destroyed.There is also inappropriate humor, an unreasonable amount of coffee, motherhood in the middle of chaos, rebuilding a life from whatever was left, and-somehow-shared custody of fucking goats.Because trauma may be part of my story.It does not get to be the ending.I am not writing this memoir because everyone will agree with my version of events.The title already tells you I know they won't.I'm writing it because I spent too long believing that someone else's denial had the power to erase my experience.It doesn't.Same story. Different ending.I'm still here.

• Reihe: Independently published
• ISBN: 9798172716041
• Sprache: Englisch
• Erscheinungsdatum: 13.09.2026
• Größe: 229 x 152 mm
• Verlag: Independently published